Little did I know that when I read the bulletin quiz of an old friend from primary school this very evening I would be reminded of something I SHOULD NOT have forgotten. Today is two months since the passing of a friend of mine in a tragic car accident. I don't understand how it could have happened to such a special soul, and God do I miss her.
I don't know who of you have lost a friend or a loved one... but I know how hard it is. I lost two people in less than seven months. The first time I actually lost anyone.
So today is two months and I dedicate this to my beautiful angel Simone Wadsworth, aged seventeen, who lost her life at the scene where her car slammed into a tree out of town.
Losing someone is the hardest thing I have ever been through. Sure, when friends move away it's hard. But there's always the option of visits. When someone dies, you know it will be a longgg time until you see them again (and that's if you believe in an afterlife, which I do, I have to).
When Pop died on the 6th of June last year, I was miserable for so long. When it came to 8 months (just over a week ago) and i was reminded of that, I felt so shitty. Three days later I had a presentation due for English and it was about Belonging. Needless to say when the slide came up of Pop I went all mushy and ended up leaving the room, my presentation unfinished.
I know if i had put Simone in said presentation the whole room would have been out the door because everyone there knew her and loved her.
There's just something about the way that I handle these things that is different to other people, but I can't describe it, nor can I show it. It's just me I guess.
Simmy xo
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*hugs tightly*
ReplyDeleteIm sure she is missed by everyone even more now that she has been gone for so long.
I know no one wants to hear it, but it will get easier one day. One day.. not necessarily now, or anytime soon.
i love you
xx