Daniel's 18th

I'm so proud of that kid. He's all grown up now!
Anyway, his party was last night and it was shweet. People were dancing, drinking and chatting all night. A few people showed up who weren't invited... some stayed a while, some left (thank God), and some tried smoking around me and got their head bitten off and shoved outside. I don't know if that was the alcohol talking or my remorse over Pop's death a year ago this coming Saturday - when Wade's party is on.
Anyway, someone got into my alcohol after I took it inside to Daniel's room, and I don't know who... but I'm not happy. That's a total of two people who stole like 4 shots worth without asking me first... even though my NAME was on the bottle! Just because you haven't had green apple vodka before doesn't mean you have to try it!
Other than the alcohol theif, the night was great. The costumes were interesting... Eleanor's was my favourite - she was a vampire in a CORSET <3 =]
How I love corsets...
That's all for this post... besides the fact that I have an english essay due tomorrow that I haven't started... =[
Love, Simmy xx

why is there never anyone to turn to?
why do people not care?
how is it that i'm still alone after all this time?
why tell her things before me.
i get sofrustrated with the world.
then i step into the picture and its like woah.
i considered something tonight that i have not considered in a long time.
why am i the emotional rollercoaster again?
and why won't anyone listen to me???

Religious Studies

When researching Islam it is difficult to distinguish between decent and crap sites online. There is no way to avoid clicking any links that may give off the hint that something lies within without knowing whether it is a virus or not. It's especially hard when you're using the school's computers.

The point is, I'm researching Islamic, Christian and Jewish bioethical teachings (on abortion and euthanasia) and the only decent site I'm getting any information off is the BBC religion website.

For any readers who did HSC religion, or are currently doing it and have found some sites covering bioethics for any of the aforementioned religions I would much appreciate a helping hand with some website choices (but I don't want your entire bibliography!).

Love is for losers
Simmyxx

let me set the mood right

i'm stuck in bed with a sprained ankle. gah

i have to use my dad's walking stick to move around because my mother insists i put some weight on it. i dont like putting weight on it.

self pity is tragic

99 days

Simmy xx

meaningfulness

i don't think i've written a meaningful blog in a long time.

it's time i returned this to its former glory:
I now have my HSC exam timetable. i have 2 exams my first day (wednesday - english then food tech), then one thursday (religion) and one friday (english), then i have the weekend and monday before my next (maths), then a week and a day before my last (physics). my only complaint is that there are 2 exams on the same day.

i'm still a fricken moody broody teenager who's co-crushing on a couple of different guys (unfortunately... seems i cant make up my mind) and uncomfortable with her body. i guess if i keep eating pasta all the time that wont really change... =[

other than my whinges about love and body, i do feel that i'm enjoying my work and schooling. not long left now.

i'm getting tired easily which is probably from all the opens i did during the holidays but i dont mind, because i'm getting more sleep then i have before in my life.

maybe that's part of my problem with love. i dont put myself out there enough. i just go home to bed. i think i need to meet more people and find someone who likes me for who i am, not someone i might happen to pretend to be to get some attention.

i need to update my playlist for my ipod too. i'm heading back to mainstream *shrieks in horror* which is unfortunate because i do feel i've discovered some undercover talent in those undergroundy types. and some hotties =]

right now i'm looking at getting personalised numberplates for my car. i'm quite excited about it.

ummm other than that i cant think of anything else to write. i need more inspiration!

good night my loves xx

"Dreams" & "Dreams Come True"

"my father said set your dreams that you want for life
a road without an ending will just get you in strife
so now I'll try and reach the sky and make my
dreams come true
and in the quiet late at night
I think I'll dream for you
I'll dream
dream dream dream for you
I'll dream
cuz dreams dreams dreams come true
sometimes life can seem real hard and things don't go to plan
but I'll give it all I've gotta give I'll do the best I can
now I could win all my dreams and have them all today
but without you in my memory
I'd cry my life away
I'll dream dream dream dream for you
I'll dream
cuz dreams dreams dreams come true
I'll keep you close to my heart if you tell me where to start....
I'll dream dream dream dream for you
I'll dream
cuz dreams dreams dreams come true
I'll dream dream dream dream for you
I'll dream cuz dreams dreams dreams come true"

"Looking for a way when I struggle through the day
(Oh so slowly)
Nothing going right when I know it should be fine
(Oh yeah)
When I'm feeling down and my friends are not around
(I'm not sorry)
I can find a way to seek a better day

Dreams come true whenever you can see
Dreams come through and set me free
Dreams come true and let me fly
Dreams come soon and I'm feeling fine

Sitting by the phone when I don't want time alone
(Slowly, slowly)
Wonder what I'll see when I wish for what could be
(What I'll see)
When my friends are down and I need to be around
(I'll be there)
I can find a way to seek a better day
(A way to find a better day just close your eyes and dream a dream today)

Dreams come true whenever you can see
Dreams come through and set me free
Dreams come true and let me fly
Dreams come soon and I'm feeling fine

(And I'm feeling fine)

Dreams come true whenever you can see
Dreams come through and set me free

(And I'm feeling fine)

Dreams come true and let me fly
Dreams come soon and I'm feeling fine

(Feeling fine, a yeah yeah yeah I'm feeling, I'm feeling fine)

Dreaming to see a better place ahead
Think about the way I need to see my fate

Dreams come true whenever you can see
(Whenever you can see)
Dreams come through and set me free
(And set me free)
Dreams come true and let me fly
(And let me fly)
Dreams come soon and I'm feeling fine
(And I'm feeling fine)

Dreams come true whenever you can see
(Whenever you can see)
Dreams come through and set me free
(And set me free)
Dreams come true and let me fly
(And let me fly)
Dreams come soon and I'm feeling fine

Feeling fine

Feeling fine"

"How I Feel"

"How can I hope that you'll love me
When you don't even know my name
When I see you at school I become such a fool
I don't know how to play this game

How can I hope that you'll notice
When you won't even look my way
If our eyes ever meet you look down at your feet
And pretend that there's nothing to say

Don't you know, baby I love you so
Can' you see what you mean to me

How can my heart ever tell you
That thelove that I have is real
If I wasn't so shy when I see you walk by
Then I'd tell you just how I feel

Don't you know, baby I love you so
I know you'd understand if you'd only take my hand

How can my heart ever tell yo
That the love that I have is real
If I wasn't so shy when I see you walk by
Then I'd tell you just how I feel

If I wasn't so shy when I see you walk by
Then I'd tell you just how I feel"